Never ending battle!

In ultima perioada viata mea este efctiv un camp de lupta. Sunt satula sa supra analiz lucrurile, as vrea sa am puterea sa le iau asa cum sunt, fara doar si fara poate. Si totusi uite-ma aici din nou intrebandu-ma de ce acum si de ce nu maine. Sunt frustrata pentru ca nu pot face nimic uneori pentru ca viata iar imi trage o plama si imi arunca'n fata fragilitatea. Vreau sa fiu puternica si sa zic" asta este, merg mai departe". Insa singurul lucru care il gandesc este "de ce acum? mai am inca nevoie de timp". Sunt satula sa ma zbat sa : am un job mai bun, o viata mai imbelsugata, un mediu vesel, sa fiu remarcata.. Vreau sa pot lua lucrurile asa cum sunt, fara un "de ce". Nu mai vreau sa incerc sa ma sculptez sa incap in forma prestabilita, vreau ca restul sa fie format in jurul meu...

Life, or better said my life is like an never ending battle. I always try to figure things out, like why something happened or why it didn't happened.. I over think, and this has never brought me any goods. This days I'm more that sad, I'm angry on life. I'm frustrated because I can find an answer, at least one that could calm  down my thoughts . I want to have the power to be honest and say " that's it, be happy that was yours for a  while". Unfortunately I can say this, the only thing I can think of is why, why now...I need more time. I hate this struggle to try to fit somewhere, to be happy, to be in shape, never to be yourself.

  Motto-ul de azi : "If you stop struggling, than you stop life"

If you stop struggling, then you stop life.
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