The joy of just being alive.

Atunci când râd, întreg universul râde cu mine. Am observat câtă veselie pot emana, câtă bună dispoziţie îmi iese prin pori şi cât de uşor pot transmite asta oamenilor, dragul asta de viaţă şi voie bună, mai ales în dimineţile când vin la muncă parcă plutind, ca şi cum aş fi luat ceva înainte (yoga şi cafeaua în pat ar fi secretul +2 pisici). Şi tot la mine am băgat de seama că nu mi-e peste mâna nici să spun de dulce, să sudui sau să fiu slobodă la gură, că deh, mi's olteancă. Ce nu pot înţelege este de ce oamenii simt nevoia să sublinieze ceea ce e rău în viaţă, în oameni şi în tot ce îi înconjoară. Am şi eu ca oricare, partea asta "sumbră", însă încerc cu tot dinadinsul să o elimin, sau să o ţin cumva sub papuc. Rar spun ce gândesc, dacă ceea ce gândesc e negativ şi nu are un fundament real, gen, omul ăla chiar să-mi merite răutăţile. Ca să-mi subjug micile răutăţi, râd, pentru ca râsul vine ca urmare a pozitivismului, aşa că nu cred că voi înceta vreodată să rad cu poftă, cu lacrimi şi sughiţuri.

I was wearing NewYorker pants, Pull&Bear necklace, StoneCreek boots, Zara blouse, Meli Melo  bag, no name sunglasses.

 Today's suggestion: "If I don't laugh at least 20 times a day - it hasn't been a good day. "

When I laugh, whole universe laughs with me. I have notice how much joy I can emanate and how my good mood  can "intoxicate" all around me. The joy of just being alive and the big smile I bring every morning with me at the office like i'm high or something (yoga and coffee in the bed + 2 cats, that's the secret ) really makes brighter everyone's morning. But I also noticed that I can swear, curse, and talk like I'm out of control, this being a "side effect" that I come from a part of Romania, where people are slightly more "colorful" when it comes to anger problems. What I really can't understand is why some people feel this urge to underline the bad aspects of life, of people or anything that surrounds them. I have this dark part too, when I just feel this impulse to be mean, but I try to temper this side, it's impossible to "kill" it, but I really try to keep it low. I barely say what I think, if what I think it's negative, and it doesn't have a rational grounding, I mean,I double think if that person really deserves all my bad judgment. So in order to reduce to silence my "evil" thoughts I start laughing, because laugh overcomes all my bad thoughts and makes me more positive. I'll never cease to laugh heartily, with tears and hiccups.

Admit, even if it's hard!

   Nu te place, iubito! Problema nu este ca nu esti adorabila (in felul tau), e vorba de chimie sau poate de comunicare, nu stiti sa spuneti franc in fata ce simtiti si ce vreti. Ai mai fost acolo in nenumarate randuri, deseori  se intampla sa fi tu cea care sa nu voia sa se implice. Nu esti perfecta si mereu vor fi oameni carora nu o sa le placi. Stiu ca te vezi isteata, amuzanta si ca iti place sa gatesti, dar poate el cauta in femei maturitatea neatinsa de el inca , cauta o femeie care prefera sa manance la restaurant decat sa stea acasa in fata cratitei. Nu fi prostuta, nu este nimic "defect" cu tine sau cu el, doar ca...combinatia nu este una exploziva. Nu sunt artificii, poate este acolo o flacara mica dar aparent niciunul nu vrea sa o creasca.
  Credeai ca e perfect, avea fizicul, inteligenta, atitudinea, tot, dar te-ai inselat! Niciodata nu te increde in cineva care nu e sincer de la inceput, si nu te mai pacalii iar si iar. Oamenii, draga mea nu sunt sinceri ca tine, nu ii lasa sa te vada cum esti de la inceput, incearca sa mai pastrezi ceva mister ceva ce numai tu stii. Nu purta masti, fi tu insati si invata sa nu mai pierzi timpul sperand ca el se va schimba. Recunoaste, chiar daca e greu! In cele din urma la revedere iubire neimplinita!

          I was wearing Oasap sunglasses,StoneCreek boots, Bershka skirt and no name blouse.

  He's not that in to you, babe. It's not that you aren't adorable (in your own way), it's the chemistry or maybe you two don't know how to say to each other faces what you want and  how you feel. You have been there many times... I know that usually you were the one who wasn't in, but you know you're not perfect and it's impossible for everyone to like you back. I know that you think you're funny, and smart and you know how to cook, but maybe he likes a women who's mature all day long, who likes to go out to restaurants instead of staying home to prepare dinner. Don't be silly there is nothing wrong with you or him, it's just not the proper mix.. There aren't fireworks..maybe a shy sparkle, but none of us is willing to make it grow.
  You thought that he was perfect, the looks, the brain the attitude, everything. But you were wrong. So never trust someone who is not honest from the beginning and don't fool yourself.. People aren't as honest as you are, don't let them see you as you are from the start, just keep some mystery, something that only you would know about! Never stop beginning yourself and stop wasting your time hoping that he will ever change..Admit, even if it's hard! In the end goodbye my unfulfilled love!
 
Today's thoughts: “Busy' is another word for 'asshole'. 'Asshole' is another word for the guy you're dating.”

I'd rather..or maybe not!

   M-am decis, mai bine te urăsc decât sa mai pierd un minut gândindu-mă cum ar fi fost DACĂ.. Știu ca nu ai fost bărbatul viselor mele. Iubesc sa ma îndrăgostesc, fac asta de parca este un hobby. Îmi place sa ma chinui, sa întâlnesc oameni noi, sa ii înțeleg. Îmi place sa ma cert, sa iubesc și sa urăsc în același timp, îmi plac provocările, iar tu ești una din ele.  Însa adevărata eu, vrea sa se îndrăgostească nebunește, sa se stabilească la casa ei și sa ducă o viata normala. Dar tu, tu ce vrei cu adevărat? Oare ma vrei? Atunci lupta, lașule! Nu mai contează acum. Știi ca dacă m-ai fi vrut, m-ai fi putut avea la o bătaie din degete.  Însa tu, tu...nu știi ce vrei și nici eu, încă.

I was wearing ClockHouse neckcloth (Thank you UCCA), Oasap dress, StoneCreek boots, Oasap necklace, Stradivarius bag.

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   I have decided! I rather hate you than to lose another minute thinking about how things could've been IF.. I know that you've never been the man of my dreams. I love to fall in love. I do this like it's a hobby. I like to struggle, I like to meet new people, to try to understand them, to argue, to love and hate in the same time.. Meanwhile the true me, wants to fall in love once, to settle down and have a normal life. What about you? What do you really want? Is it me,that you really want? Then fight, you coward. Never mind, you know that if you've really wanted me you could've had me at "Hello". You, you.. don't know yet who you are or what you want, and neither do I.

Today's quote: “As soon as you stop wanting something, you get it.”

Fake it until you make it!

Fericirea, vine din interior. Asa ca eu merg pe principiul prefa-te pana te crezi si tu. Te simti deprimat si simti ca nu iti gasesti locul? Atunci zambeste, razi cu pofta, razi pana simti ca esti cu adevarat fericit. Eu asa am invatat sa trec cu fruntea sus prin viata. Nu conteaza ce iti ofera ziua, gandeste-te ca la orice problema este si o rezolvare. Nu exista IMPOSIBIL!

I was wearing Stone Creek boots, Tally Weijl dress, Mely Melo accessories, Hand made bag, no name scarf.

 Today's quote : “Nothing is impossible, the word itself says 'I'm possible'!”

The joy, it's a state of mind. So I say fake it until you make it. You feel sad and blue, then it's time for you to fake a smile until, the smile becomes the reality of your day. Smile until you feel the joy. That is how I keep myself going through life. I always smile and I barely let myself feel the sadness of life.. No matter what smile and think PINK!